Friends

**NOTE TO SELF: I need a "badass" icon because I just realized I don't have one, and something like that would help me express things...

ANYWAY.

So you know how sometimes my dad is a dick-ass jerk? Well, apparently Eric, my younger brother, is also a dick-ass-know-it-all-misogynist fucking jerk.

I'm working on that last essay for my online class (which, by the way, I have REALLY not wanted to do, because it is annoying and I hate this class), and I needed to finish it tonight. Eric is sleeping on the couch because for whatever reason he won't sleep in the room he and Steven are supposed to share. So when I'm working on it, he keeps asking if I can work on my computer--which I CAN'T because I need the online course website and that fucking thing crashes my computer every time. So I tell him that he wakes me up every morning playing his french horn, so he can wait half a fucking hour while I finish this goddamn paper. (I said it nicely.)

At this point he starts flinging insults (among them "bitch," which I hate more than almost any word and consider it the worst insult, not to mention fucking misogynist because there isn't a corresponding word for guys) and telling me what that's different. Everything is "different" when it comes to his goddamn French horn. We all have to make allowances for him--and yet he makes allowances for nobody, even on one night out of this entire month I'm here. And yet HE calls ME selfish.

And then when he bugs me and insults me and swears at me until I just push him to get him to SHUT UP, he violently--AND I MEAN VIOLENTLY--grabs onto me and shoves me down, twice, and gets all up in my face about weak women, etc. I think I have bruises.

All I'm going to say is that I'm glad he and his long-time girlfriend broke up, because this fucking prick does NOT deserve to be with a nice girl like her.

EDIT:
Oh, I forgot about the "powerless" thing...

I'm tired of being made to feel powerless, by certain idiots, my students, and now my own family of all people. FUCK them all I guess.


AARRGGH I'M FUCKING PISSED OFF!!!!!!

I played the game twice. The first time I had 5 words from shironiku, this time they're from speedball.

1) Love: Even though we're about to embark on separate journeys, I am very happy about the love that speedball and I have developed and continue to share. We make awesome friends, we make an awesome team, and we work and play well together. Every form of love that we have shared has been gratifying and comfortable, and now we'll continue to cultivate the deep friendship that we've always shared, with a little more depth and nuance than before. We both love each other enough to continue to support one another into whatever comes next. He remains, and as far as I'm concerned will continue to be, one of the best friends I have ever had, and I will always love him.

2) Coupling: I love this show! speedball introduced me to this fantastic bit of BBC awesomeness before we even started dating. There was a patch of time when we were both unemployed, and we'd hang out and watch episodes that he'd downloaded and laugh our asses off. One of the first purchases we made as a couple was the whole series (only 4 seasons, sadly) on DVD. Now they've joined the ranks of "background noise" shows as we know them back and forth. We'll leave them on while we're doing other stuff just for the friendly noise and get the occasional laugh. And every now and then there's a moment when we have to stop what we're doing and pay due attention.

3) Monica: Guilty as charged! Y'all remember the show "Friends", right? Well I am definitely more than a little bit Monica. Not as much as my messy roomies think that I am, I swear, but even I have to admit that occasionally at a time during the show where the laugh track indicated that something she had said or done was over the top, it hadn't dawned on me that it was anything weird. I promise that there were times at which she made me roll my eyes, too... but probably not as often as a normal person should've.

4) Vomit: ( Cut for those with weaker tummies. )

5) Wedding: Ours was AWESOME. When speedball and I tied the knot, it was an HP Geekfest. We had a sorting hat poem to explain the seating at the reception, tables themed with the 4 Hogwarts houses, oh geez... it was all Potter. There's a whole album dedicated to it on my Facebook page if you haven't seen the pictures. And in addition to the HP geekery, there was a fair bit of AOKP influence, most notably in the form of Tusking and a very special performance of "Carry On"... also on FB. We had a lot of fun, and a lot of extremely awesome friends who came together to make the day run smoothly.

Few things can get me out of work on time as promptly as the first round of hail (well, ice pellets actually) on a night that promises to bring freezing rain.

Home safe while sun mostly still up. As night falls and temps drop, hearing a lot of cars skidding around on the streets out there. Yeesh.

The amusing thing is that this was one of the milder weather days in some ways--all the rest of the week, my water bottles had been half-slush by the time I got to work. But cold and dry is easy to get around in, much easier than slick slick ice.

Okay. Just when I thought I could get no more angry at Helen... today happened.

I closed today, and as parents were picking up they kept mentioning being bummed that I was moving and all that. I thought it was interesting, 'cause I hadn't told anyone I was moving, but I was too busy to stop and talk to anyone at length. Finally the last kid of the day got picked up and as there were no kids left I had time to chat with her dad. Apparently Helen has told all of the parents that the reason we have to close is because I'm running off to California, and she's just too old to work there by herself with me leaving her there alone like that.

Yes. You read that right. She's blaming me.

I quickly corrected him and let him know that the reverse was true. I'm thinking of moving down there because she decided that she couldn't afford to pay me and bills at the same time, so I was out of a job. Even with the way the job market is, it's better in SoCal than it is up here. Yes, I'd decided not to take over the business, but we were supposed to go until the summer, when the current license expires. Even when I was going to take over, I was supposed to be a salaried employee until then.

I just got screwed out of 6 months worth of pay, and she throws me under the bus? And moreover, she didn't think anyone was going to say anything to me about it? Worse yet, I have a feeling she's told my dad the same thing!

And I intend to let all of the parents know the truth. The ones who are my friends on Facebook are getting messaged tonight, and the rest will hear about it tomorrow. And I intend to confront Helen on this. It will be as benign as possible, but I will tell her that I spent this evening telling parents the truth so they didn't think it was my fault.

I can't believe her nerve.