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Just a quick update

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 03:20:55 GMT

I'm about 8 weeks along.
Last week we had a little bit of a scare. I did not feel well and had some cramping with a little bit of bleeding. So I went to see the doctor and everything is fine. I was relieved to see the heartbeat. Still not feeling that great but at least we know everything is okay. I have my official first doctors appointment of Friday so I guess we will find out if I'm considered high risk and figure out any precautions I may or may not need to take.

BabyFoxBlog 2 Electric Boogaloo

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 04:44:13 GMT

Well, for those who don't know yet, I'm pregnant with #2. The spare. The monkey. The baby. ;)

The estimated due date is May 22, 2010. Who knows when the kid will actually be born, though.
So far, this pregnancy feels a little different. I don't feel pregnant and I'm in a bit of disbelief. Probably my negative affect.
I have random touches of nausea. My lower abdomen just feels like there's something there. It's strange and hard to explain.

I had my first appointment today, which was just to meet with a nurse and answer oodles of questions and make appointments. Looks like I'll have the same primary OB, plus a nurse I'm familiar with, so that's good. It seems that Kaiser has re-vamped a lot of their policies. That, plus the newly opened hospital, makes me a bit more hopeful/optimistic. *fingers crossed*
Then, I had some lab tests done. Damn, they took a lot of blood! Blech. And, my aim is getting better for peeing in a cup...TMI...
Oh, and I've decided to stay on meds this pregnancy. I hope that's the best choice!

How is #1 doing? Oh, she's enjoying her terrible 2s. She's a blast (truly and sarcastically). I have to admit I'm a bit concerned because I do know that her life is about to turn upside down for a little while. Must remember---there are many many older siblings who do just fine. Right?

I'm feeling my preference would be for another girl, but I'm fine with a boy, of course. I really can't think if any boy names that I like. Well, there's one but I already have/had people in my life named this and I wouldn't want people to think he'd be named after them. We have a girl's first name picked.

Sept. 18, 2008 update

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 04:01:04 GMT

Quick update...
Rachel had an audiology followup yesterday and passed with flying colors, although she apparently cried at the elephant during the sound field testing. Not sure why that cracks me up...

Today, she had a followup developmental eval. She's within normal limits for a 12 month old, so, that's great. She participated well. She received a standard score of 89 on the Bayley, which surprised me---I thought' she'd score better. But, I can't complain about WNL. Next eval is when she's 2 and they won't go by her adjusted age.

Random aside---I've been waiting for this to happen--I walked into the waiting room and 2 of my students were there for a doctor appointment. Funny!

I need to be more on top of documenting her words she's using. I think she's got 10 now, plus many signs. yes, i do plan on taking language samples and using her as my own longitudinal study...:)

Baby's first fever...

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 00:40:26 GMT

Well, she's sick. She had a fever of 103 andJohn took her to the doctor. Shes actually doing quite well. I don't think anyone would know she's sick by looking at her. she did toss and turn all night and was very hot to the touch.
She weighs 21.2 lbs. now.

Shes almost walking. She has taken a few steps by herself, but mostly holds onto tables, walls, fingers, etc. Lots of words--hat, Papoo, mama has been more consistent. She still enjoys books and will fill in predictable parts-- pointing to her toes, etc.
Tooth #7 has cut and I think there are more about to pop.

stuff my kid is saying...

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 02:26:48 GMT

Her favorite words of the day:
blickam blickam blickam
ngam ngam ngam
bocka bocka bocka

she cracks me up.

more stuff my kid is doing

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 17:04:14 GMT

I'm gonna go out on a limb here and say that Rachel has, indeed, said her official first word at 12 months of age and it is: "up." Not mom or dad. Up. She uses it pretty appropriately and consistently. And, of course, it took me a while to admit it because my speech pathologist brain over-analyzed it all. She's also saying "baby" fairly regularly and is imitating lots of words, including "diaper" (pronounced /bapa/...assimilation.)

She's cracking herself up and is in amazement because she's realizing all of her powers! Like pushing buttons and making things happen! Remote controls, phones, her pianos, her music stage from Nana. She's digging it.

Lots of babbling! Even some jargon. Today was "b-th-k, b-th-k" which amused me, because she was waving around a toy and looked like she was intently trying to conjure something up. Lots of pointing and yelling at people, too.

She's learning how to master the the fake cry, but I much prefer the silly faces and when she sticks out her tongue to make me laugh. I'm also digging the cuddling sleepy times.

Even those days when I feel like the worst mother in the universe, I'm still diggin' on this kid! She's friggin cute!

12 month dr. appt

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 23:44:35 GMT

We trucked down for Rachel's 12 month appointment today. All went fairly well.
She weighs 19 lbs (25%ile) and is 27 inches (75%ile).
She got 4 shots and mommy and daddy nearly cried because she was crying so much. Poor baby.
I did delay the MMR, although the doctor didn't seem to see any need to. But, I feel better with waiting.

Over the weekend she learned how to point to her nose and to imitate "uh-oh"

One year old....

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 04:21:39 GMT

...and 3 days

Pretty trippy that it's been a year! For the few days before her birthday, I was going through the whole "one year ago today I was doing XYZ" (having pains, working, on self-imposed bed rest, etc), I'm trying not to do that anymore because it brings up the anxiety of hospital trips, pumping schedules, bad nurses, etc.

Anyway, my mom came in for the festivities on Friday (the 4th) and we spent the day with her doting on her granddaughter. I'm so happy that Rachel didn't have any "stranger" anxiety and actually seemed to bond well, and quickly, with her Nana. We ended up not doing anything for the 4th. Except sleep. I also worked on a photo album for Rachel with pictures of her first year. Saturday evening, we met up with John's parents, sister and nephew for dinner and then wandered around Shoreline Village (?) for a while.

Sunday was the big day! John and I went and picked up the monkey cake. It was very cute (and very delicious!!), except, when we picked it up, it originally said "happy 13th birthday." Amusing. we had no real safe place to put it while we got ready, so we stored it in the bedroom, which smelled like chocolate for quite a while. Eventually we made it down to Geezers. Folks from John's work got the Wii all set up for the kids/adult kids. Andi and Karen helped us out and even went out to buy us a candle, because we left ours at home. Clan Onstad arrived with the (also very delicious) smash cake! Folks filtered in, family and friends. I was really appreciative of everyone that came!!
I think it went really well! We had a sandwich buffet. Rachel showed off her mad skills with drinking out of a straw. we mingled. How our child is turning out to be an extrovert is beyond me!

Then the cake! She seemed both puzzled and entertained by everyone singing happy birthday to her. She didn't start out by smashing the smash cake--rather, she went in mouth first. Friggin' hilarious!! I think I enjoyed smashing and eating more than her :D. The monkey was then sacrificed! And it was good.
Rachel made out like a bandit! Got lots of fun toys and very needed clothes. We haven't had a chance to go through anything yet. Yikes! Rachel seemed to enjoy the tissue paper and had her eye on one gift in particular.
Thanks to everyone!!
Pictures can be found here:
http://s88.photobucket.com/albums/k200/shaky_hands/First%20Birthday/

So, my kid is one! Crazy!
And, monkey brains was had for several days! MMMMMM!!

Sadly, Nana went home yesterday.

.It's so crazy to watch her develop! She seems like she's changing everyday.

Receptive language-- She knows "peek-a-boo." In fact, if you say those words, she'll hold up her hands to her face/ears and then bring them down whether she is holding something to hide behind or not. Invisible peek=a=boo.
She knows what "no" is. That doesn't mean she'll stop. She'll wave hi and bye when its said (also spontaneously)
She knows milk, more, ....and a lot more (bad speech pathologist not keeping track more specifically...)

Expressive langauge- She imitated the sign for "more" Woohoo!!! I was impressed!
she's imitated (both direct and delayed(!) "baby" several times. she's imitated "fish /bish/ and "sheep" /bip/. she'll also say words or sounds and then whisper, like shes trying to process what shes said.

motor--she's a climber! she climbs over us, also the barricade we make in the bed so she doesnt fall off... we'll have to rethink that one. she loves climbing from the bed to the love seat and play with the blinds. she's also climbed up the play yard...

she also gets cranky...like right now......

update

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 01:13:49 GMT

john took rachel in today for an updated eye exam.
Sounds like her vision is fine. They even did more assessments than they usually do because apparently,
they had time. Sounds like her visual acuity is actually above what is expected for her actual age. yay!
We go again for one more check up in one year, then it'll be as needed, if needed.

It's amazing how she changes everyday. She loves playing with some of her toys, opening stuff, banging,
etc. She sits there (with W sitting...oy) playing, enjoying herself, exploring. It's crazy. She's a little human ;P
She has been climbing lately. She'll be in her play yard and will stand on a toy. heh. I think she's graduated from
baby to toddler!
Still co-sleeping. Lately, I've been getting her to go to sleep by rubbing her forehead and singing Twinkle
Twinkle Little Star. Last night, she fell asleep with her head resting on my arm :D So goddamn cute!
She's been rubbing her head along the wall, (and biting) when she's tired, so, as far as the head rubbing goes,
I just figured she needed sensory input, so I give it to her.

Oh, and screaming is back. yay......

I've been thinking back to a year ago. It was around this time when I was working and just not feeling well. Cramps,
spotting. I went on self-imposed bed rest and watched a Dead Like Me-athon. Crazy!! Life is getting back into perspective
,though.

Almost 12 months...

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 04:20:44 GMT

I've really enjoyed having the time off from work to spend with Rachel! I think she's enjoying it too...perhaps a little too much as it seems she doesn't really want to be held by anyone except me. I'm partly amazingly thrilled by that, but also feeling kinda...guilty ?. It also makes me more fearful for the day I'm not #1 XP

Let's see...oh, the other day, she fucking cracked me up! she was just sitting there with an empty water bottle, hitting herself in the head, and laughing. Hilarious!
Lots more sounds coming more consistently /b, p, n, m/ She's said /n^n^/ /m^m^m^/, /^p/, . She's very consistently waving hi and bye, imitating the bull, she;s starting to do "give me 5" Her receptive language is really coming along. I'm still trying to be consistent with the signs-- milk (for formula), book, up, eat, more, water. The only sort of imitation (?) I"ve seen is when she is drinking formula, she looks like she may be signing milk.
We started Gymboree this week. We first went to a baby sign language class. Even though I'm using some signs with her, I wanted an organized, fun way to do it, plus it's good for her to see other people signing. It's also a nice way for both she and I to be social and be around other babies and mommies. She loved being around the other kidlets. It cracks me up how social she seems to be. She was giggling when adults were laughing and just got excited to see other little humans. It was funny...at one point, another kid tried to take her flashlight away and she fought to keep it. Good girl! Now, I do want her to learn to share, but I'm also glad she's not a pushover. Anyway, this week's theme was bed time, so we learned sleep, light, stars, moon, book. It was cute.
Then, there was a free class (I think they were previewing a new time for a class) for the regular play class, so we hung around for that. It was fun, but a bit long for Rachel, I think. But, she enjoyed interacting with the other kids and crawling/climbing around. There were a couple of activities that she didnt' seem to want to do, but I motored her through just to give her the experience.
I do hope to enroll in more classes to keep us busy and social.

Anyway, this kid cracks me up! She's moving and dancing and whatnot. We really really need to babyproof this place, especially so she's not confined to just her play yard area, which she doesnt' always like because she'd prefer to be with us, but we can't just let her crawl around freely because of all the crap and clutter and wires, etc that are all over.
her eye color is very interesting...sometimes the look blue, but other times, they look like blue and brown all at the same time. It's weird. i do wonder what they will end up being.

11 1/2 months

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 21:44:20 GMT

She amazes me with how active and interactive she is!
One of her favorite things is to look at the baby and the mama in the mirror. She's just started to wave to them and will clap, too.
Her imitation skills have increased significantly. She's gone from watching intently and *maybe* deciding to imitate to imitating everything (well, the routine stuff).
I've been doing signing with her for a couple months but she hasn't started signing back yet.
She has been pulling herself up to standing and letting go of a support for a couple of seconds. Or, she'll use her legs to support (leaning on something) instead of her hands.
Her babbling is still mostly /d/ /EdE/ is popular. the cats are "Eddie," as is John. For a brief second, we were Eddie and Mimi. She mostly uses /mimi/ or /m^m^/ when she's pissed. /nana/ has also been observed.
She's waving hi and bye a lot more now.
Crawling has been mastered for quite a while.

Birthday party is scheduled complete with monkey cake. We chose a monkey theme because she has oodles of monkey toys. Whether she likes them or not, I have no idea. by the way, if you are reading this and did not get an invite and would like to join us, please let me know!
Co-sleeping is still the sleep pattern. she freaks when we put her in the crib. I was feeling not very married with me and Rachel in her room and John in ours, so, now, we all sleep together.

I guess thats it

9 months

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 03:39:20 GMT

holy crap, time flies by! It's been a crazy 9 months.

Let's see...the early intervention people (Regional Center) came out for an updated eval. We'll get the report and we'll get age equivelencies , etc, but, they are very happy with how she's doing. yay! And, they thought she was cute :D

No new sounds, really. She is elevating her tongue and lateralizing to the right. She's completely mastered rolling both ways and wants to crawl so badly!!! She's still drooling like a fool, but no teeth. Her sleep has been absolute shit, though, lately. She has been getting to sleep at friggin 11:00pm. She's also been crying when put into her crib, so i've been letting her sleep with me. i don't mind the co-sleeping...it's the timing.
oh, and we went to baby's first ren faire. i bought her garb...pictures to come. She did great, of course! She enjoyed all the attention, I think...and everyone telling her how cute she is :D. I kinda enjoyed that too...lol. i brought her in a carrier called an Ergo. I really liked it and enjoy the concept of babywearing, but, it really really hurt my back. now, it could be that my back would've hurt anyway after walking around and with me gaining so much weight, but maybe carrying an 18 lb. kid didn't help. anyway, then, we went over to Claudia's for a little while, which was fun.

I went to this thing in Fullerton last Friday called "The Red Tent" based on the book (basically, all the women go to the red tent when they are menstruating, etc, and come together to help each other give birth). So, what this was was an event to have women gather to share their birth stories (both good and bad). It was a small group- there were only 8 of us, so we got to take all the time we needed--in fact, we went well over the end time). It was very cathartic. It's been a while since I've talked about my birth story/breastfeeding etc, and it was a very comfortable place for me to just get everything off my chest all at once with so many other women. I normally don't like to cry in public, but I was bawling like a baby. Hell I was even crying at other stories. At the end, the woman who was leading the group did a healing activity with guided imagery, which was wonderful. I normally can't get my head into that but I was able to this time. She talked about going back to the original experience sort of like you were watching a movie and then to think about the things that didn't go the way you wanted. Then, to remember that you are a strong woman, etc. and you made it through. then she had us repeat the events how we would've wanted them to be. I had beautiful image of me and John right after Rachel was born with John looking at me saying "you're doing such a great job" (fyi, that really did happen in the days after Rachel's birth and was something very important to me :)) and Rachel on my chest breastfeeding. and we were able to be together for as long as we needed. That was a badly needed image that will stick with me.
I don't like that I had a preemie. It was a horrible experience. But, I have to look back on what happened as a growing experience. I just love this child so much and so intensely! So, however she came to be with me, I have to think of fondly.

So, yay!

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 03:07:30 GMT

This struck me as kinda funny...

More developmental stuff

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 02:29:30 GMT

Well, on Thursday afternoon, the lady from Regional Center (an early intervention program) came to the house for a sort of check up on Rachel's development. All is going well! In the next few weeks, they are going to do a complete developmental eval as well. They say that they will keep an eye on her overall development until age 1, then will watch her language development. We both thought that was amusing.

She's been so grumpy and fussy lately! Earlier in the week I was so excited because when I was getting home from work, she was SO very excited to see me, smiling, squealing and moving her arms and legs. It was wonderful. But, starting Thursday, when I picked her up from John's folk's house, she has been so very grumpy. She's crying when I put her down. I pick her up and try to move her to different places in the house or give her new toys because I'm thinking she's bored. But, it's not helping. I just don't know. I think I'll leave it at that for now and write my grumpy post in my blog.

Developmental Eval

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 01:46:24 GMT

We took Rachel in today for a developmental eval. I've said it before, but I am so impressed with Kaiser in that they consider preemies high-risk and automatically provide so many services. Anyway, aside from my sunglasses being run over by the stroller, all went very well. She looked at her cognitive and motor skills, primarily. Of course, we're looking at her as a 5 month, 22 day year old. She's right where she should be. We'll see her again in about 6 months and then one or two times before Rachel turns 2.
Of course, I've been monitoring her speech and language development skills.

Speaking of-- we have reduplicated babbling! woohoo! i noticed it yesterday-- bababa. yay!
She's also rolling from front to back AND back to front quite well! I think she'll be sitting unsupported sometime soon.

We're also fading the use of the swaddling blanket.

She's just so goddamn cute!

8 months!

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 00:37:27 GMT

Actually, 8 months and 1 day.
It's been a crazy 8 months!

She's become so much more aware of her environment! She wants to grab everything--and put it in her mouth. She's just about mastered rolling from tummy to back and is getting better with back to tummy. She's been going through a little bit of separation anxiety (?)-- when we leave the room sometimes, she'll start crying. She seems to be a pretty social kid! Pretty happy, overall. She has her moments! She's also getting better with getting the pacifier to her mouth.
We're still swaddling her, but i think we're slowly fading it. Last night I left one arm out...maybe i'll leave both out tonight. She's been turning around 180 degrees in the crib, turning on her side and even got over onto her stomach one night!
Oh, and she's still playing with her voice-- and screaming. I'm trying to encourage her to babble and get some /p, b, m and d/s in there as well as modeling different vowels. She occasionally produces /k/ or /g/. (those last lines there reminded me of writing a report...).

She went to the audiologist today to get her hearing tested. I know many people complain about Kaiser but the way they approach preemies has been great! They've automatically referred her to the audiologist as well as for developmental evals. She'll have her hearing tested every 6 months until she's 2. It was fun! I did a lot of audiology work in undergrad and grad school (hell, my major in undergrad was speech pathology and audiology). He did a tympanogram, measured otoacoustic emissions and then measured her hearing thresholds in the sound field. It was fun for me because I went into the sound booth with her. The reinforcements he had were much cuter than the ones I had in clinic :). I enjoyed it!! Anyway, she passed and has normal hearing. yay!

Baby's first...

Sat, 16 Feb 2008 17:34:31 GMT

cold :(

I''m feeling like a deer caught in the headlights (yes, it's a very minor cold, but I freak out WAY to easily). So, please, any advice is wonderful!!
I did take her to the doctor yesterday and he suggested saline drops and suctioning her nose. anything else?

Jumperoo Poo

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 08:09:20 GMT

Well, the girl is 7 months old (has been for a few days now). She's trying so hard to sit up and roll from back to front. She's really exploring things with her hands. It's kinda magical. I've gotten a few more giggles, so I hope they come more frequently because they really make me happy. We're also waiting for those teeth! She's drooling like crazy and gnawing on anything she can get into her mouth.

I started her on solids this week. Just a little bit of rice cereal. She seems to be tolerating it well. I've been slowly making it a thicker consistency. she has, though, been pooping more. 3 times today!! I think that may be a record.
So, that was a segue to the subject of this post. She was in her Jumperoo, which she thoroughly enjoys and I noticed she was thinking really hard, so I figured she must be pooping. I tend to give her a little while before I change her just in case she's not actually done yet. So, I go to change her and there is poop smeared all over the back of her diaper. Apparently all the jumping caused the poo to smush out. It was charming!
I'm just glad this didn't happen, say, 5 months ago. It would've only added to my mental breakdown. today, it was just amusing. Disgusting but amusing.

Just another update...

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 21:08:13 GMT

Another 'random stuff that only I care about' tidbit... Rachel is 30 weeks old, which is significant (to me) because she was born at 30 weeks. Well, Im not sure of the significance, but I find it interesting.

My little doggie likes to lick condensation off of cups...

I got another giggle today!! Yay! If I knew it'd work, I'd jiggle a giraffe rattle all day.

her sleep is off, which makes my sleep off. Last night she woke up pretty much every hour. She did her weird legs-up-in-the-air-and-kick-them-down thing. I read somewhere that when kids are about to meet a milestone or do something new, they may have weird sleep/wake up. I don't know if the leg thing had to do with it. I think she'll be ready to sit up soon. She's been wanting to roll from front to back a lot lately...maybe she's getting ready to go from back to front. She sure is cranky lately... She goes from happy to bitch in no time flat.

I feel like there were other things i wanted to write about. Oh well.

6 month appointment

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 03:36:04 GMT

We took Rachel to her 6 month appointment today. I felt guilty about not being there, so I skipped out of work early, which is a bit unfortunate because we had a full day meeting where we met up at an autism focus teacher's classroom to show us all her neatness. I missed that. But, Rachel is most important.

The stats: she is now 14 lbs 10 oz and 25.25 inches
She's doing well. the doc seems pleased.
He has apparently never heard of the whole "open gut" thing either. I guess we'll start to introduce foods pretty soon then.

She is still drooling up a storm and everything is aimed at her getting it to her mouth. But, no teeth yet. I think she may have had a cold a week or so ago. She sounded like she lost her voice.

She's been sleeping in her crib lately. It's been a slow transition, mostly from me being an overprotective mommy and not wanting her to be alone.

Her Nana came for a visit last week which was nice!

No recent giggles, which is a bummer. She is still rolling from tummy to back and has rolled from back to tummy a couple of times. yay!

6 months old!

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 22:36:04 GMT

So, Rachel is 6 months old today. Crazy, eh?!?!?! It's been a wild ride, that's for sure.

July 6, 2007, 3lbs, 6oz

January 6, 2008, 13 lbs, 6oz.

Oh, and as a random aside, tomorrow is the 1 year anniversary of when I got the positive home pregnancy test.

For shots and giggles...

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 03:57:22 GMT

Last night, I heard some of Rachel's first giggles. Cutest thing ever!! I've been working hard at replicating the situation, but have failed. I have been waiting for true laughs!! So, she better keep it up!! I find that she starts meeting a milestone (like rolling over), then gives it up for a while and then does it again. I hope giggles stay!!!

Today she had her third Synagis shot. She's a trooper and only cried a bit. But, the big news is that she now weighs 13 pounds, 5 ounces. My big girl! Just shy of 10 pounds heavier from when she was born.

I think she may be teething soon. She's successfully been putting her hands in her mouth and sucking/gnawing. She's been drooling bucket fulls. She enjoys having her gums rubbed. She has enjoyed gnawing on my finger. But, no sign of bumps or anything.

And, as a preview, I'm working on (in my head) a post called "To Two Or Not To Two" about my dilemma about having a second kiddo. Y'know, pros and cons, looking for input, etc.

Mushy musical interlude #2

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 00:20:19 GMT

There are places i'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends i still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life i've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When i think of love as something new
Though i know i'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them
In my life i love you more

Though i know i'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them
In my life i love you more
In my life i love you more

PS...

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 15:14:03 GMT

I just thought it'd happen sooner...

I'm re-saddened about the whole breastfeeding thing. I was reading some stuff on my message board (sept. 07 babies) about women and their breastfeeding. About how it's so cute when their kids pop off, smile and pop back on. About how they have been successfully bfing for 3 months. Everything's going swell for them. Breast is best, yada yada yada. Fuckin A, that;s what I wanted. I hate that it didn't work out. I actually am still making milk. Not pumping, I can just feel it and express some. I think about re-lactating, but I am afraid it'd be another heart ache.

I am a perfectionist. When I set my mind on things and work my fucking ass off, I get what I want. Except in this case. So, I've got my own personal expectations plus wanting what's best for my kid. And I didn't get it. Boo hoo for me, y'know?

Honestly, we're doing really well. I just still have this ounce (ha!) of disappointment.

Milestone-y update

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 14:58:52 GMT

My intention has been to use the LJ as a baby book to record milestones and whatnot. I haven't done such a great job at keeping track!

Anyway...she has learned to scream. yay for learning vocal play. boo for mommy's ears. It's kinda cute though...I've mostly noticed it when she's trying to shove her hands in her mouth.

yesterday, she started doing pseudo-raspberries...just sort of sticking out her lips and blowing spit (no tongue like a traditional raspberry). so damn cute.

She's getting closer to rolling over and sitting up. I give her a little boost and she pulls herself up or over.

I think she went through a little growth spurt last weekend because she was having a little trouble with sleep and was a bit extra cranky. But, hooray for going back to sleeping through the night!!!!

I've been thinking muchly about having another kid or not. Aside from the preemie/hospital/breastfeeding BS, Rachel has been pretty damn excellent. She's a good natured baby, sleeps well and is fucking beautiful. Are all our eggs in one basket? if we had #2, would it be colicky and more difficult? i have a strange desire to be pregnant. I am afraid, though, that Rachel would get jealous or lose attention or something. But, hey, having a spare kid would be great in case some thing happens to her or she, you know, doesnt' love me and junk.
what to do about number two....?????

I'm off work for the next 2 or so weeks. Let the bonding commence!